ANXIETY SHADOWS!

As the shattered pieces of glass rest down on the floor, making a distorted image and the bulb flickering on and off, I see for myself a shadow of someone standing amidst those glass pieces one second and then the second as the bulb would light up again it would vanish in thin air, the other second the bulb would go off it would stand right there and stare in my face and this time it stood there with her hands covered in blood from the glass pieces.

The time I tried to come closer to it would just disappear, it seemed to me like the body of a girl, as I fixed the tube light so as to see what actually was it. I saw a carbon image of myself, wearing the same clothes as me, having those same scars as me on his forehead. The only thing that was different from me was her brain was bleeding through, not because of some injury or something but because of those thoughts, emotions that bided her.

She mysteriously smiled at me as if trying to scare me, she stood there in my face reminding me of all the bad choices I made, succumbing to my fears, and worrying myself about the things that are yet to come.

She threw all of that into my face and I could feel the worry, fear in my head and my body started shivering, she stood there laughing as my brain started to bleed, every fear, every bad choice succumbed onto me and that laughing wouldn’t just stop.

My heart thumping, the sweat made the bed wet as I woke up from that dream and reminded myself that was just a regular dream where my anxiety would hit me at the hardest every night, every second of the day, night.

WHAT IS ANXIETY?

Do you also have some nightmares at night, you too are troubling from anxiety, well then let’s help cure it.

Anxiety can be defined as feelings of fear, worry or anxiety that doesn’t let you sleep in the night or are constantly accustomed to your back and in your mind.

It likes you are sitting in a group of friends and suddenly someone mocks at you and there it is hitting right into your head.

It’s like you are walking onto this bed of roses and suddenly a thorn pricks ou in between it.

SIGNS AND SYMPTOMS:

• Increased heart rate
• Restlessness
• Difficulty sleeping
• Trouble concentrating

SOURCE: https://www.whiteswanfoundation.org/disorders/anxiety-and-related-disorders/anxiety

THE SHADOW!!!!!!

As those raindrops race their way hoping that they reach the finish line, and you sit there unknowingly  with no clue, your brain feels like smog,  just like that windshield after the rains, you try to creep up and sleep in your bed but then suddenly the shadow of anxiety cuddles you all up, you start thinking about the failure you just encountered with your current job interview, you keep checking your phone again and again if there’s some good news but all you get is a door to nothing, anxiety kicks in more you start panicking and everything seems a blur, you start crying while those rain droplets halt their race and now these tears race their way down your cheeks but then suddenly

BOOM!

And there is this shadow, a shadow of yourself, of your happy face, of you decked up in your favourite clothes eating your ice-cream and laughing off the failure you had encountered and you look much stronger and then that shadow at your face and:

“WILL YOU LET THIS ANXIETY TAKE OVER YOU OR YOU WOULD ENJOY YOUR FAVOURITE ICECREAM AND THEN COME BACK STRONGER”.

And there it was self-realization and you fight out the anxiety and finally, those raindrops too win their race and the sun shines over you and you stand strong there fighting this anxiety…….

I know fighting anxiety isn’t easy but you fought for that favourite top of yours at that store, girl this is nothing then you can fight this too, and then you get to have your favourite ice-cream plus that top too. What else do you need in your life…….

“JAB KAHI KUCH NHI THA KAHI BHI KUCH NHI THA WHI THA WHI THA”

Even if ranbir kapoor hadn’t opened the door and heard KUN FAYA KUN or entered that holy place that film that song wouldn’t have been a hit and most of all he wouldn’t have been “THE ROCKSTAR”.