I'll be honest, I have no clue why I picked psychology in particular. What I can think of is that I've always been the odd duck and i learned this the hard way that universal human suffering, black holes, logic, fallacies in religion, anatomy of the brain, neurodynamics of existence and anime are not topics that one brings up on the dinner table or anybody, ever. Because people love illusions and almost all my peers went ahead and learned their trigonometry, long divisions, their poems for recital, studied for 10 hours a day because they were driven by the need to not fail in life and because their parents said so.

Here i was worrying that I'll only get 4 hours on my Playstation today and boy do i want to see what story unfolds in the imaginary world that someone else made up. Fantasy and complex things always intruiged me and I have no clue why. So understandably, I intruiged myself more than anything.

One thing that I have seen is that people who study psychology and philosophy are a bit odd when compared to the classic example of an excellent normal person. There's something deep, morose, shining and infinitely agonizing behind those eyes with dark circles around them. And i find that beautiful.

Studying why we do what we do, how our mind and body perceive the world and makes sense out of it and what are things that make up.... Us. Developmental psychology is vastly fascinating.

Studying and decoding women (oh my dead god, help!), no offence ladies in my experience men are even harder to handle. Understanding the relational dynamics and sympathizing with our vulnerabilities and promoting sensual experience both intellectual and physical. Counselling psychology is a huge help. Plus we get to help others directly as an added bonus.

Or or or, gestalt psychology, phenomenology, experimental psychology, neurobiology, physiology, criminal code and the links that almost everything has with psychology makes me drool to learn it in hopes that I'll find other odd ducks and tired intellectuals to discuss all this with. To help myself primarily and not be a stranger to myself. To learn from those infinitely more intelligent dead people than the dumb, herd mentality alive ones. It's all so utterly romantic but it is also incredibly lonely. So I'm just doing all this for self satisfaction and hope that I'm able to make something out of the randomness of life.

Thanks for coming to my Ted talk.