I was always made fun of and picked on by everyone at my society where I live because the people I used to play with were all atleast 2 years older than me and saw me as an easy target and left no opportunities to make fun of my complexion. And I used to think that maybe it is my fault and all this is normal. I used to cry a lot even at trivial thing but never let anyone see me as I didn't wanted to be made of and people to perceive me as a weak person. But at school I was a different person as I was good at sports and academic alike So when I saw people look up to me at school it was something I had never felt and wanted to feel more powerful and in control of what happened with me. The way I thought could achieve that was making fun of other people before they could make fun of me and validate my feelings while running form my insecurities. And eventually that turned me into a full fledged bully and made a lot of friend who were similar. As I grew up I gradually started to realise that I wasn't in good company as my grades started to drop and my peers now despised me. And at this point I decided that I needed to change my attitude so I gradually started to distance myself from the company I had and made some new friends. As years passed I came to realise how wrong were the things I did and apologised to everyone I had did wrong .And I know it does not justify or make right for me to bully someone I just feel that there is a reason for people being the way they and behave the way they do and we should put more effort into understanding what circumstances someone is in. As I can't help but think that only if someone told the 6 year old me that crying is okay and you should not be ashamed of the way you look, maybe I wouldn't have been that hurt and hurt others around me.
Reva Garg December 14, 2020 6:58 pm
Hey Pratik! Your growth is so tremendous and inspiring. Glad you found the right path and decided to choose it. All the best for your journey ahead. Sending smiles your way <3
Sabira Solanki December 14, 2020 11:28 pm
Pratik, I'm so proud of accepting the fact that you were wrong, and trying to make yourself a better person. Being bullied really leaves this bitter feeling in the heart, and often, without any thoughts, we turn into the people we despise the most. I'm so sorry you were shamed for crying. You're a beautiful and strong individual, take care!
Experiences make a person a lot more in life than books. You had your experience and the best part is that you learned what was wrong and worked for it. As you said nobody was there to tell you that crying is okay when you were small but i am sure you would definitely work for changing the mindset of the people around you in ways you feel gives you he better result. This society needs a change and it need to start from us. All strength to you. Good luck!!!!!!!
Manav Singh December 14, 2020 2:20 am
Nobody is perfect my frnd, Everybody in this world has done something wrong but how you become big and how you make yourself a better person? By learning from the mistakes and by making others understand by your mistakes so i would suggest you that whenever you come across anyone just like you(your older version) so you be that person whom you wanted at that point of time to help you. You tell this person that he can cry and can feel. By this you will do a good deed to your past mistakes.
All the best and you are a great person.
It's good to know that you accepted what wrong you did and you learned from it. More power to you. Thankyou for sharing your experience.💕
happy to see the honesty in your writing. You have gone through a lot, and you understand the reasons behind it. Some situations in life are mean, but they teach us a lot. some realizations are late, but they stay with us longer.
Your 6 year old self is proud at the person you have become now. Because you understand what is normalcy. and believe me it is never too late
wishing you peace and sweet things in life.
It's good to know that you accepted what wrong you did and you learned from it. keep growing and all the best buddy! ❤️
Glad ! You have learnt so much from your experience. You are on the right path today. What matters today is your present. Happy for you:).
I’ve felt that aswell bullying is traumatising please dm on https://instagram.com/_shades_of_khushi_?igshid=6tzi78mz6odq I’d love to know more about you
Hey Pratik, I appreciate you for acknowledging that you too once were a bully. It just shows how much emotionally mature and aware you have become. And yeah I completely agree with you on the point you made that there's a reason why people behave and act the way they do. That was a very strong statment. I too have faced bullying because of my complexion and at times I was also tempted to retaliate, so I can understand why you became a bully during school. Anyways what matters is now you have grown emotionally well and you do realise your mistake, which I think is the ultimate victory for you.🙂
Hey pratik, so much relatable. We all were somewhat like this and now we have changed and let us help others also to change
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It's good to see that you realised things on time and made efforts to repent. I feel inspired by your story. People can actually change over a course of time.
Be proud of yourself!
