My story of coping with the lockdown

Hello wonderful humans! I am sure we all have a story to tell and an experience to listen. So here I am presenting to you my story of coping with lockdown.

Since the pandemic hit us in the mid of March it was very unusual to bear with it. I am sure lockdown had taken a tol on mental health for all of us. So this is my story which is no less than a roller coaster ride. I stay in a hostel and my home is 12 hours away from the hostel. So, when the lockdown was declared I was very hesitant to travel in the trains ( I was seriously very anxious and I had a fear of catching the novel coronavirus). But anyways I had taken all the precautions and every now and then I called my friends so that I won’t  turn more anxious. However I reached home.

To be honest, it was really new to me but in the corner of my heart I was very happy because I wanted this break. I was tired of my schedule and I love eating ghar ka khana. I also spent quality time with my family and it was literally after a decade that I Face-timed some of my friends!

But later as the days went on I became very  open to frustration and irritation because of the fact that I had to stay in my home all the day. Also, one more thing which made me more vulnerable to stress was the news that was going around. Like seriously, at that moment I realized how easily one can lose life.

With all of the cake comes the cream on top! In the same way with all of these issues came the urge to satisfy my drives. My drives were going out of control. I turned out to feel that I am deprived of so many things (deprived of a partner, stable feelings, warmth of other beloved person and yes of course deprived of physical and emotional satisfaction). At this point I felt broke, I started questioning my morals, ethics and societal values. I had this very huge conflict in my brain and heart. I was trying to figure out what is right and what should not be done. Upon all of this I was always surrounded by social media which kept me disturbed always.

Later on Instagram itself I came across a post related to mental health aspects of Bhagvad Gita.  This one post left me deep into thinking regarding the fact that our ancients scriptures also spoke about mental health. Which meant mental health isn’t a new concept but  very old thing known to all of us. So, I started reading Bhagvad Gita. It seemed to be interesting. But later, the fatigue took over the interest of reading it.

Later, as the days passed I started meditation and channelized my energy in doing dance, cooking ( now I can say that yes, i cook well), reading articles and various other activities.

I was also keen on knowing more about behavioural scene of babies so I started reading and watching more videos about the same.

Later, I enrolled myself in an online clinical psychology internship which proved out to be a saviour to me. This internship kept me engaged in the work and hence I set up a routine and eventually followed it. Even, the meditation was very helpful to me, I infact took a 21-days meditation challenge. I got to realise the true  meaning of abundance and that is when I got to know, be whatever happens we need to  accept it and move on.

Now, I am genuinely happy and hopeful that soon things will settle for the best. Now, I am more into watching psychology related videos and wedseries. I cook delicious food and yes I love myself even more now. One last thing that I would like to tell you is I realized, only one thing remains constant in the life and that constant thing is CHANGE.