Deshana Pragya Jain
Hello everyone,
Sometimes all we need is that one person who could get us that one tiny ray of light in the darkness that we feel so stuck in.
So here’s a story about someone who’s related to me. Let’s name that someone ANONYMOUS for our story. So here’s the story from the ANONYMOUS point of view (POV)….
ANONYMOUS’S P.O.V:
The light breeze swept my hair across my face . I tucked a strand of hair behind my ear and continued star gazing. There was a smile of contentment on my face .The past few months were a wreck. They were hard to comprehend . I had lost all hope and faith in life until I met someone.
A year back my parents decided to move to the country side . It was a place I wasn’t familiar with. It followed a different culture and spoke a vaguely familiar language. I wasn’t really happy to move away from where I grew up . It was hard for me to say adios to my friends i had made , the school I spent my entire childhood in , my wonderful neighbours , the person who used to sell delicious candies to me…But yet I had to eventually give in and greet them farewell .
Me being a naïve, innocent high school kid entered the new school with hopes of making new friends but instead was greeted with uncomfortable stares , a lot of hushed talks and so on. But I ignored all of it and sat in my new class with a nervous smile plastered on my face .
I could understand the language they spoke but I did not know how to speak back. So whenever they communicated with me I would reply back to them in English . This was misunderstood as ‘attitude’ by many . They ignored me , spoke behind my backs and hurt me with sharp unkind words . I tried to talk to them but they avoided me like plague .
I tried to supress my helplessness and my sorrows but to no avail . I was pointed out by my neighbors , people in my community treated me differently . I was talked to only when they needed something of me . Apparently I was the human doormat.
All of the loneliness affected me rather badly . I was constantly being judged even by strangers . All the rumours about me destroyed me from within. Due to the constant worrying and depression I lost my appetite . My weight loss was very much evident .
I lost the ability to smile . My eyes were weary . An extrovert turned into introvert. I barely spoke two sentences per day . I started questioning my existence . All I wanted was not to be judged , not to be treated differently and instead to be understood of who I truly was . But this apparently was something an eight grader couldn’t dream of.
Negative thoughts started consuming me. I thought about ending my life and burying all the rumours, lies , constant back bitching and all of their judgements with me. These thoughts blinded me until I met someone , a godsent angel out of the blue .
We started speaking. He was someone who felt exactly how I felt. And when we have a person who feels like us then we are bound to connect. We connected too. He became by best friend and changed my life for good. He brought in rainbow to my stormy clouds. He made me realise that I shouldn’t be changing myself for anyone or learn a language just for them to accept me.
Just loving myself is enough. You don’t need the world’s opinion on how you should be. Because you are beautiful and people’s hard and deceitful opinions are worth nothing. And that’s when I knew giving up wasn’t worth it cause life still has beautiful people who can flip the bad to beautiful. This one person brought drastic change in my life, soo much that i didn’t dislike living anymore instead wanted to live life to the fullest…
So this was the story of my anonymous friend. We all go through a phase where nothing feels right and all we ever want to do is quit. But life changes it’s shades to fast; it could be grey a moment and colourful the other. So, NEVER GIVE UP.
Life doesn’t always have bad things, sometimes it’s just life’s way of saying a brighter day awaits tomorrow. All the dark nights definitely have a beautiful sunshine. So just hang on until your dark sky has a gorgeous sunshine to show you. And always remember to cling to that little hope. Until you find that hope just know that this universe is beautiful and you should be grateful that your breathing and living just alright!!
Beautifully written!